Ever feel you are just here? Today is another one of those days for me. It seems like playing leap frog – leaping from one day of depression over good days – positive days – only to land on another day filled with depression. From feeling good and worthwhile to days of feeling I am just here. Stalled out. Just a little more than taking up space. It seems like I am just marking time until God is ready to receive me in the heavenly country.
Going through the motions, trying to smile, of living without really being alive. Marching in the same place over and over, day after day. Going nowhere. Just here.
Lord, help me wrestle with this sluggish depression. Sweep away my gloomy spirit. Change the way I am looking at life. Let me find that tiny ray of sunlight that pierces the darkest clouds. Lift me out of that abyss that says I am just here to where I know I am, and always will be, in your loving arms. Walk beside me through the Valley all the days of my life. Amen.
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The Journey 
My brother John use to say about cruise ship vacations, “It’s not the destination, it’s the trip itself.” He loved the friends he cruised with, he loved the company, the laughter — everything about the journey, as it refreshed and renewed him so he could continue his life’s journey. (As you know, Pastor Steve, John had many health issues.) The destination — the islands- was just secondary to the trip itself for my brother. As Christians, we embrace the time we spend on our earthly journey with love, hope and joy but we look forward with the same love, hope and joy to our final destination. It’s a win-win situation. The difficult times are just as much a part of our earthly experience as the good times. I am so sorry that you are experiencing a lot of ups and downs right now. Coming recently out of the hospital is difficult, because depression is too often a nasty side effect. My prayers for you right now are that, until you return to health, the side effects you may be experiencing will be underwhelmed by the love, hope and joy you see and experience in each and every day . I love your writings, as did my brother, keep them coming. You touch others’ lives when you are not even aware of it. You write from the heart and touch on matters and feelings with which we can identify.
Praying that today is a sun sunny day for you!!